if someone ever falls in love with me i will literally die of shock
I’m a teenager why does my back hurt I’m not 70 years old
ugh, am i the only one who can commit to a plan around here? it just seems like nowadays people say that they will go out with you on a certain day and then say the same thing to another person, completely disregarding the fact that they already have a commitment. i mean, i know that stuff comes up but all i ask for is a little bit of courtesy.
all of my friends all seem to be busy all the time, and as a result i end up trying to plan my life around their plans and still never see any of them on the holidays or outside of school. this may seem a little sad to you, but in the entirety of my 8 week christmas holiday, i saw one person outside of my family. and when school resumed, one of my friends asked me, ‘sophie, what did you do all holidays?’ the real answer, which i neglected to tell her, was that because everyone is always busy all the time, i gave up trying to talk to them or even make plans with them. this caused me to become a social hermit who ventures out only by themselves and rarely makes contact with anyone who isn’t the cashier of whichever store they may be visiting. it is now june, and the only social thing i have done since then (apart from attending some parties and a concert) is going out to lunch last friday with friends, to celebrate a visit from my irish exchange student. afterwards, we were supposed to be going to a movie. everyone flaked.
i’m not sure if not commiting to plans is normal, but is it wrong of me to expect people to make plans and stick with them? it just seems like a lot of people, ‘friends’, say that they will go out with me, and then later i hear from someone else that they are actually doing something else. it just sucks.
so, these holidays i probably won’t see anyone. and yes, it may sound sad, but i’m okay with that. i will continue to go shopping on may own and see movies on my own. i may even go see the great gatsby on my own for the second time. i am not going to plan my life around my friends’ social lives.